Holy. Freaking. Crap.

24 Oct

It has been metaphorically forever since I last posted. Jeez.

I’ll make up for it, promise. (I’m procrastinating from studying)

I have 2 rants that I really need to go on before I can do anything else tonight…

So I finished 5 exams last week, that was brutal. Really brutal


Alex Chernik, a freshman, died last week. There is speculation, with good enough evidence, that it was a suicide.
Which brings me to talk about UVM. Based on my own personal experience, as well as looking at other schools, I really think UVM should consider suicide/stress preventative vacations. Honestly, 10 weeks with no break is tough. It was alright in the beginning, but as we’re approaching our 8th week of school without a break, I think all the students are starting to feel overwhelmed. Midterms and papers seem to be loaded on quite heavily at this time. Even after the five exams I had last week, I still had a paper due this week and another midterm next week. After having midterms, I just want to have a break. Midterms are different than finals in that we still have to go to class while preparing for them. With finals, we have (even if they aren’t that much) reading days during which we have time to study without worrying about having to go to class. The point is, midterms are almost more stressful than finals and we should have a break, even if it is a 3 or 4 day weekend. I don’t know the circumstances of the boy who died, but honestly, the kind of environment that seems to seep through campus is one of stress, anxiety, and melancholy that may be driven by work loads, weather, etc would make it hard for anyone to keep his spirit up.  It’s hard for even the people who don’t have too much work to be happy, just because the overall atmosphere is  subdued. I’m not sure I’ve felt this in previous years. It could just be me, and the fact that all of my classes are upper-level ones, but I’ve talked to other people, and they seem to feel the same way. I’m definitely going to be praying about this a lot.

That rant was long, I know, but I need to rant about one more thing… please.

I was browsing the internet when I stumbled across a Catholic forum. (I am not a Catholic but I was curious so I putzed around). I then came to a post asking what sexual immorality meant in the Bible. The literal word they use is the Greek porneia which in the English Bible is sometimes translated as fornication, or sexual intercourse between two heterosexuals outside of marriage. Now, here’s where I get a little frustrated. First of all, someone posted saying that pornography, or the portrayal of explicit sexual subject matter for the purposes of sexual excitement and erotic satisfaction, was the root of porneia. I’m sorry, which history book says that modern English came before Greek? The poster used this argument as her basis to say that porneia meant fornication.

Well, here’s my argument (and I don’t believe the word porneia came from the word pornography. Jeez.) Porneia can have 4 definitions associated with it:
1. Adultery – or having sex, while married, to someone you are not married to. Easy enough.
2. Bestiality – or having sex with animals
3. Incest – or having sex with family members and
4. Homosexuality – or two people of the same gender having sex. This one is a little harder.

Now, I have heard that the only time that people back then thought that homosexuality was not okay was when a heterosexual man basically raped another man to humiliate him (usually after defeating him in battle), which is what the Sodom and Gomorrah story was about.  The men of the city were going to rape the men (angels) who were visiting in order to insult them (Genesis 19:1-9). Leviticus 20:13 says that a man should not sleep with another man on penalty of death. However, in Deuteronomy 14:8-10 it says we aren’t supposed to eat shellfish or pork, so if we uphold one, we must uphold the other, right? Still, when Jesus came, all of these rules became sort of obsolete So I believe that the former idea I talked about concerning homosexuality is accurate.

So where is the part in all those definitions about fornication? As far as I can tell, from the Old Testament, there was nothing significant said about sex outside of marriage being bad. The New Testament says that temple prostitutes who had sex with temple-goers to worship other gods and to raise money for the temple itself were immoral such as in Corinth, but that’s about it. *Sigh*

My point is, sometimes our translations of the Bible may not be accurate. Does that mean the Word itself is inaccurate. Hell no, it just means that every man, including the ones who translated the Bible, is imperfect. Do I think sex before marriage is bad? Well, to some degree I think it can have detrimental emotional and physical consequences (and I wouldn’t say this unless I had first-hand experience), so I would caution those who want to give themselves away to someone who isn’t wholeheartedly going to be devoted to them for their whole lives. Is it immoral, though? I’m not sure, but for right now I’m going to say, I don’t think so.

A lot of my information comes from this website: and the Bible, of course.

If someone feels that I am very, very wrong. Please tell me. I don’t mind being proven incorrect; in fact, I welcome it.


Oh, and I forgot…

11 Oct

Remember those two exams I took? One in Bible as Lit. and one in Native American Indians?

Bible as Lit. (the one I thought would be easy) = C

Native American Indians (the one I thought would be hard) = A-

What. The. Hell.

(ps. that C will not happen again.)

This picture is terrible, but somehow amusing.


Long time gone…

11 Oct

Ah, yes. It has indeed been a while since my last post. I have been ultra-busy.

Lemme give you a rundown of what my week is going to look like.

Tuesday: Lesson test in Japanese. Go to Study Abroad office to talk about my going to Tokyo next year. Find boots. Small group discussion meeting.

Wednesday: 4 classes including 1 English midterm exam.

Thursday: Japanese oral exam.

Friday: 3 classes and a 5-7 page midterm paper due.

Saturday (yes, Saturday): Japanese Conversation midterm.

Sunday: Church, then my sister-in-law’s baby shower (which I haven’t bought anything for yet.)

Scary. Stuff.

One step at a time, and lots of prayer ahead. Wish me luck.


Aaaagh! Exam!

02 Oct

Yup, again it’s been a while. Last week I had an exam in my Bible as Literature class. It wasn’t very hard, and I studied well for it. However, on Monday I have another exam in my Native American Indians class. I don’t think I’m going to do as well on this one. There is a lot of material to sift through, and honestly there’s not much that I’m interested in. This whole section of the course was based on the history of Native Americans, from the time they got to North America to the time when Europeans came in. We’ve covered most of the groups in the western United States to about the mid-west. It’s SO MUCH TO HAVE TO KNOW! So I’m spending all of my Saturday going through lecture slides, notes, and readings (over 400 pages!). So. Freaking. Fun… NOT. Just part of the college experience… at least my other classes are good!

Actually, I got a paper back in Modern Poetry which I thought was a terrible paper, but I got an A on it. I like it when this happens.

So other than the exam making a dent in my contentedness, my car won’t start, it’s not the battery, it may have run out of gas and some needs to be put in the carburetor. I’m proud of the fact that I can check my own oil and fluid levels and generally determine what is wrong when my car dies. But I’m still gonna have to call AAA or my stepdad to really determine what needs to be done. Plus I need to call the DMV in New York because I got pulled over there and was supposed to fill out paperwork about it and lost the papers. Plus my laptop is broken, so I need to contact Sony to get a box to ship my computer out to the manufacturer to get fixed. UGH. So much!

Well, I probably shouldn’t spend more time on this, so I’ll leave it at that. Praying for better luck.


What I’d like to be doing is…

29 Sep

However… this is not my current  state. It’s 12:26AM and I don’t usually stay up this late but I have a paper due tomorrow plus an exam. Oh, the life of a college student…


Hisashiburi – Japanese for “It’s been a while”

28 Sep

Yup, I didn’t post anything all weekend, mostly because I was busy.

Not much happened this weekend. I went home to mow our lawn (which takes about 4 hours, I live on a farm) and in the process, broke a window with the tractor. Yup, pure talent. I also said goodbye to my pet rat, Doki, who had to be put down because she’s old and sick. 🙁

Then I went home and did homework  >_<  Not fun.

Sunday, I went to church, then ate a ton of food that wasn’t necessary, then visited my grandparents.

… If you have something against Christians (which I truly hope you don’t) you probably won’t be interested in the rest of this post…

Then from noon on Monday to noon today, there was a 24-hour prayer session going on in the Catholic center put on by InterVarsity. Now, I’m not Catholic, and I don’t think InterVarsity is either, but I can commend the Catholic Center for their facilities. That building is freaking awesome!

But anyway, so I prayed for an hour at midnight, and then again at 10AM. Let me tell you, praying rocks! My views are that God is all-powerful, and that He really wants to love us and no prayer goes unanswered. I love praying because I have seen it change outcomes. In fact, this whole deal has prompted me to make a prayer wall in my room. It makes my whole day better when I pray!

At 7 I have a Bible study in the Davis Center. Until then I need to study for an English exam I have tomorrow…

or I could watch episodes of Chi’s Sweet Home (Japanese show)



24 Sep

Alright, so this week has been awesome! Okay, so maybe I’m lacking sleep… a little bit, which means that my focus and attention in class has been difficult to maintain, but WHOA. It’s been good.

Last night I served food at the salvation army. I feel very fortunate to be able to serve these people with love. Some of these people work so very hard to get out of the situation they are in. The Salvation Army is so wonderful to give these people food every night. It felt good, being there.

And I’m also very fortunate to be able to go to Belvidere, Vermont tonight. A family from my church made homemade root beer and ice cream, plus some delicious food, AND are having bonfire. It’s going to be  a blast! I’m just so happy to be able to receive so much love from my community! ^_^

There are times when I feel the world (including myself) is broken, wounded and hurting. What encourages me is being about to help the world around me, and then seeing the good that comes out of my actions. Also, knowing that there are things in this world, like spending time with great people, that remind me of how much love there is… that’s what makes me keep going. ♥


22 Sep

Hello again UVM and UVM prospectives!

After four classes, you would think that I would be drained, but that is so. Not. The. Case.

In fact, armed with a Dominos pizza and a large coke, I’m ready to do some Japanese homework. (For anyone reading this that is even slightly interested in Japanese, TAKE IT. The teachers are awesome and the course work isn’t heavy at all! You will have a blast!)

Tomorrow is going to be awesome, just like today. I have just my two Japanese classes (the lecture and the conversation class). Then I’m going downtown with InterVarsity to the Salvation Army to do a soup kitchen.

Friday. Whoa. Friday. I will be going to a Root Beer Float party with my church group. Can anyone say homemade root beer and ice cream and bonfires and AWESOME food? Yeah, that’s right. Fellowship. It’s good.

So I will elaborating on these subjects as they happen.

Until then, life is good, and hopefully, it will stay that way.

Peace out, UVM.


Hello world!

22 Sep

So this is going to be my first post. I’m a little crunched on time, so I’ll be brief.

I’m a junior here at UVM, majoring in Japanese and minoring in English.

I’m currently living in Converse hall.

I love UVM!

And that’s all I have to say for now. I have to go over a reading for my next class but then I’ll be posting more tonight!

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