April Fools, you’re almost a senior!……….but seriously, you’re almost a senior

While curled in the fetal position on my bed I contemplated the outcome of my upcoming senior year. Every worry I could ever have began running through my head like a freight train. Where am I going to live? Where am I going to work? How am I going to pay my bills? All of these things were such real problems I thought I’d have the answer to by now.

But let’s calm down, for just a second let’s not make yet another post dedicated to panicking about the end of my college career. This one will be slightly less depressing, yes, even uplifting. Do ever realize how when you have even an inkling of doubt it can multiply and completely ruin your day? It’s so easy to give into the panic and to curl up on your bed, and just go to town on a pint of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream. Maybe that’s just me though.

I don’t know if it’s just me worrying about this but I sincerely doubt it. Yet with thousands of people in my graduating class it can be easy for me to feel alone in the struggle to find employment after school. Somehow I think everyone else got pulled aside at some point and taught how to find that great internship or how to land that perfect job. At times I think I missed out at some point. Mostly I know I’m just a paranoid thinker, on my days off I have a penchant for going on WebMD and diagnosing myself with random diseases.  So I don’t think I should be overly concerned with my paranoia since it’s quite prevalent and usually without base.

So, in my most round about way of explaining things, I’ll finally get to my point with a list of things to focus on when you’re starting to panic…

1)Make sure if you’re paranoid about something you first evaluate whether or not your fears are valid. For me, usually they’re not. I can recognize that at least.

2) Make a to do list. This always helps me. It helps to de-clutter your thoughts and see what you have to do.

3) Clean your room. This will help you get your thoughts more organized and you’ll be able to think more clearly.

4) Get ahead of the game. I am a terrible procrastinator so this one is a bit of a challenge for me but when I get started on things right away I feel a lot better in the long run.

5) Evaluate your strengths. Obviously you’re an intelligent person, you’re reading my blog! :) Knowing what you’re good at will help you trump your fears. It’s kind of like going into a sports game, if you concentrate on what you’re good at the opponent doesn’t seem so scary. Unless it’s Chuck Norris, then you just don’t stand a chance no matter what, unless you’re Chuck Norris.

6) Use your support system. I have a lovely group of friends, I live with 3 of my best ones! It’s always nice to be able to talk to someone who can see you as you are and be able to give you level headed advice when you’ve worked yourself into a tizzy.

7) You’re probably not the worst of the worst. I like to think of this in terms of a zombie apocalypse. You don’t have to be the smartest, the strongest or even the fastest; you’ll survive if you can just outrun the poor schmuck running next to you. I take a Darwinian approach to this, all those people who thought it would be cool to blow off classes, not study, and just generally disregard anything fulfilling about college will pay for it when they’re devoured by zombies.

8) An amazing skill to have in your holster is a good work ethic. You could be the smartest, most capable person at your job but if you don’t show up on time, miss shifts, make excuses, or sleep on the floor of your work establishment during hours; you’re probably not going to fair well for too long. My father taught me that having a good work ethic can take you far and obviously he was right (he’s a dad of course). Being a dependable, flexible person at your job, internship or whatever you do for work will help you a lot.

9)I know it’s tough but give a 100% on about 95% of the things you do. I say 95% because in no way are you going to give your all on EVERYTHING. I’m just being realistic. But make sure that 5% is stuff you can definitely slack off on, like waiting that  extra week to do your laundry or putting off calling that annoying relative for just a little longer. Stuff like that. Never, ever slack hard on the important things, like a test. When you keep slacking it becomes a habit and habits stick around for a very, very long time. Sure maybe it was a reading here or there but then it turns into, “Well that test doesn’t matter, it’s only 50% of my grade, I’ll try harder next time.” Ya, no buddy. There are so many “next times” before you find yourself begging the professor for mercy during their office hours, pleading not to give you the crappy grade you know deep down in your heart you deserve.

10) I don’t actually have a tenth thing to say, I just hate it when lists end in odd numbers.

An Actual Spring-like Break

Well I thought I’d never see the day but the temperature here is climbing to high 40s and low 50s, just in time for spring break!

Despite the relaxation associated with spring break I’ve been doing the opposite, working a lot of hours to earn more money! I’ve also had some time to think, and panic, about what the future holds for me.

I was laying awake the other night when I was compelled to look at the calendar in my phone. Only about 11 more weeks until my junior year draws to an end. OH GOD. I’ll be a senior soon, in full panic mode, searching for a job and hoping to find a career in a sea of other graduates scrambling for employment.

I am still exploring the nursing option but as always my decisions are governed by finances and I wonder if I can afford to be in the accelerated program. Since the course load is so high there is no chance of holding a job during that time because all I’ll be doing is studying.

I don’t know.

And that’s the worst of it. Not knowing. But everyone, at some point, will feel this way. I’d be worried if I wasn’t panicking at the end of my junior year!

A Radical Change of Heart

So, in a bizarre turn of events I have radically changed my future plans. I want to go into nursing. Yes. Nursing. For so many years I’ve held a lot of strengths that I couldn’t quite find a linear job to accommodate: warm, friendly, outgoing, likes people and a fast walker. When I took all of those into consideration I realized how perfect nursing would be! I also wouldn’t have to hear, “You’re going to be broke after college because you have a degree in classics.” No joke, people have said that to me. 

The growing job market for nursing is awesome; room for improvement and a good starting salary are good enough reasons to get me on the bandwagon. I’ve been looking into accelerated programs, because I’ll already hold a bachelors in another degree. I was reading some programs will even help you out with the cost because there is such a high demand for nurses nationwide.

It’s already nearing the end of my junior year and I’m glad that finally I have a career plan to strive for. I hope that I’ll be able to stick with it once I decide to go into it. Im good at studying so throw me a book and I’ll have at it!

Flash Mob Time

My god. Another beautiful day. I’m starting to feel a little spoiled now! Walking up to campus this morning I felt like a million bucks. Everyone seemed a little bit happier, it would’ve been an amazing moment to randomly break out into song and dance.

Yes, that is a dream of mine.

During Halloween I waited for everyone to gather by the Davis center dressed as zombies and randomly start dancing to Thriller. Alas, that didn’t happen either.

 

What if though, that actually happened, in real life. Yes, a real flash mob.

Wiki defines a flashmob in these terms:

flash mob (or flashmob)[1] is a group of people who assemble suddenly in a public place, perform an unusual and seemingly pointless act for a brief time, then disperse, often for the purposes of entertainment, satire, and artistic expression.

While Urban Dictionary defines is as:

A group of people who appear from out of nowhere, to perfom predetermined actions, designed to amuse and confuse surrounding people. The group performs these actions for a short amount of time before quickly dispersing. Flash mobs are often organised through email and/or newsgroup postings

Either way this would be totally awesome. This got me to thinking about movies and real life. It would be funny to somehow find out that the life you were living was actually being played for an audience. That you and everyone you know are all just characters in a brilliant movie for others to watch. What would your movie be like? Well, mine would have a lot of inner dialogue and wild fantasies that would never actually pan out, kind of like a Scrubs-esque theme to it. :)

 

 

 

 

The Sun? Totally Forgot What That Looked Like

Today is wonderful day because the sun has finally shown its face. I can already catch a glimpse of the spring. Oh yes, spring. I’m so excited. Finally I’ll be able to walk out of my house in a cardigan or t shirt instead of 10 pounds of winter gear.

The spring semester is very interesting. The light at the end of the tunnel is called summer; as opposed to fall where the “light” at the end of the tunnel is winter recess. Not that comforting. BUT SPRING! The semester draws an end in the light of the sun, calm breezes and the promise of a relaxing summer without any school work. Ok so you have to work to pay rent over the summer BUT when you get done with work you don’t have to worry about homework, studying or looming tests. It’s tricky though, in the spring you’d rather abandon your classes and take a stroll to the water front or just stay out and enjoy the weather…..what to do, what to do….

 

Come on people you’re paying for these classes, warm weather will always be around but your college career only lasts so long. It’s coming down to the wire for me and I can see how every day is numbered so it’s important to remember that you’re paying thousands of dollars to take these classes that could change your life.

Start of the Spring Semester

Spring semester of my junior year has finally rolled around and it’s hitting me how close I am to my senior year. It’s scary. So many questions about where I want to go and what I want to do.

My classes are awesome, I’m taking 3 classics classes, 1 Art history class and a CDAE class. All of these subjects I have a very keen interest in and I’m happy for that. I have to admit I did slack off a bit my last semester and my B+’s showed it unfortunately. I think this semester, knowing how disappointed I felt about last semester, will drive me to get better grades. Although when it starts to get warm out I don’t know how strongly that will hold up :)

At my new job I’m getting hours during the week so I’ll definitely have to have a very structured schedule to accommodate studying and preparing for tests (something I could’ve been better at last semester). I like that though , I feel I can’t work well unless I have a fire lit under me, hence why I’d sometimes wait until the last minute to do something.

On another note I have to get started on my Peace Corps application, I’ve been really dragging on it lately. I suppose it’s because I find it hard to put into words how badly I want to go to another country and learn their culture. How can you really convey your true feelings through words? You can’t. I’m way better about talking to someone about what I’m passionate in, rather than putting it into words.

The other day in my Egyptian history class we were watching a movie about the Nile. This group of people went down the Nile on rafts and tracked their adventures through an amazing documentary. Watching it I realized that was exactly what I was looking for when I go abroad. I want that sense of adventure and adapting to a radically different way of life that I’m used to. It seems weird but I feel like going abroad can help you get over your fears. I’m terrified of spiders and the dark. I want to travel to South America, home to some of the most disgusting and deadliest spiders in the world. Ya, I’ll have to get over that phobia when I have a spider as big as my face running around…

My Life is Meme

 

For those of you who don’t know what a Meme is here is the urbandictionary  definition:

“A ‘meme’ doesn’t have to be funny, provocative or even make sense. Most memes fall into one of three categories:
- ‘Quirky’ stuff that isn’t funny.
- Pathetic stuff that fills you with vicarious despair.
- Revolting pictures that could be presented to some alien jury as evidence that humanity is cancer”

So basically memes are these hilarious cartoons and pictures that pertain to your life and all of its average, embarrassing or otherwise internalized moments. These pictures convey the thoughts that you keep inside because you believe  you must be the only weirdo who thinks of these things.

If you still don’t know what I’m talking about go to google and type in MEME, go to the tumblr websites because those are generally the funniest.

http://memecollection.tumblr.com/

^^^^^^^ LIKE THIS ONE!

I first noticed this meme movement last year (my sophomore year) when a certain poem ended up on a certain someone’s door. The next day a “pokerface” meme was placed over it, I had no idea what to make of it. Was it good? Was it bad? Either way it was pretty embarrassing. In the end i found that it was neither good nor bad, ya still doesn’t make much sense.

I’ve just realized how many times I’ve used the word embarrassing in this blog entry, mostly because I keep forgetting the second R and have to keep retyping the stupid word.

My god, I am illiterate. How am I in college….

But I digress.

Embarrassing. I’ve used that word a lot because it pertains to about 93% of everyone’s daily lives, some more than others, aka, me. Being a junior I can now reflect on so many of the things I’ve done throughout my college career….and I wonder how I have friends. I truly wonder that sometimes. For some reason my friends will never abandon me no matter what embarrassing thing I do and I sure do some pretty embarrassing things.

But laughing at the memes everyday gives me hope that every embarrassing moment can turn into a laugh. Although some shenanigans will take longer to laugh at; right now, ya too soon.

The thing to remember is that there will be a lot of embarrassing moments in college, it’s pretty much expected.

Nobody cares, unless it’s really creepy and stalkerish, then it might be awkward for a year or two. Because probably when you did that embarrassing thing in front of that one person that one time you didn’t think you’d see them every other day and have to endure those super awkward knowing looks  that you were that creepy person that one time at the one place and that person never wanted to see again either.

Again, I digress.

So no matter what pitiable, horrible, super awkward thing happens to you, people will forget about it……in like ten years…..or maybe never. But those people are probably going to become  losers and you don’t want to know them anyway. :D

 

The Blackest of Fridays

I will never understand why people feel the need to get themselves into such a tizzy over Black Friday. People get mugged, pepper sprayed, mauled, run over and even killed because of mob mentality surrounding Black friday. So you get some good deals, but are they really ‘deals’ when you consider the cost of your nerves, sleep and physical well being? I think not.

There are plenty of good sales going on that aren’t on Black Friday yet people still flock to the stores to stand outside in the cold at 4am or even earlier!

I had the lovely privilege of working on Black Friday. It was super busy but overall not too bad because our store was well staffed and prepared for the onslaught of ravenous customers. However, the day after was horrible. I don’t know why but we were just as busy if not busier than Black Friday.

Christmas is coming up though, only a month away! I seriously need to figure out what I’m getting people!

Spring Semester Classes

I had an absolute meltdown during registration yesterday morning. Registration begins at 7 and as everyone knows the first 30 seconds is crucial to either having a crappy semester or the best semester of your college career.

Ok. Maybe it’s not quite that dramatic. But still, it’s pretty important to get on there as close to 7 as you can.

At 6:55 my computer decides that  I don’t have access to the UVM website. FREAK OUT MODE. I was instantly in a frenzy of worry and confusion, my house mate next door was also registering when she heard the commotion.

7 o’clock came, and still I couldn’t get in to register for my classes. I needed an Italian Renaissance art history class badly and there were only about 15 spots. Every second that ticked by was an eternity and yet another spot being filled for a class I was dying to get into. My house mate gave me her computer to try and log in but I still couldn’t get logged into the system. Unavailable. Unavailable. Unavailable, was all I kept encountering.

By 7:06 I was a blubbering puddle of pity as I wallowed that I wouldn’t get any of the classes I needed.

Then, suddenly, I ray of hope. I finally was able to get to the class registration page, I eagerly punched in the numbers and hit enter, it paused, I waited…waited  some more……….kept waiting…….and finally, I was registered for all five of the classes I needed!!!!!!!

I’ve got a pretty awesome schedule next semester with all the coolest classes and IM SO EXCITED

 

Thanksgiving Break!!!

I am so beyond excited for Thanksgiving Break to get here. I am planning on having a big Thanksgiving with all of my friends before we all go home and everyone is bringing something. I think about 30 people are going to be there so it’s going to be seriously crowded in my apartment! We don’t even have a dining room table!! Oh well, we can make it work. What’s so great about Thanksgiving is being around all the people you love and I certainly love all of my friends :)

My parents are coming up tomorrow for a visit and I’ll be happy to see my dad because I haven’t seen him since August.

I’m also excited to eat REAL food. I want to eat a home cooked meal so bad, I eat the same thing pretty much every week. I usually make stir fry or alfredo because those are the two main dishes I can put in tupperware for work and eat at night when I don’t feel like making anything else so I’m kind of stuck in a food rut.

Along with Thanksgiving comes with all the stress of my job outside campus. I work at a retail store so it’s going to be insane, especially on BLACK FRIDAY. AHHH!!!! Everyone at work is on edge about making our sales goals and  making sure that the employees aren’t making any mistakes. I’m super paranoid  now because I don’t want to mess up on register or have something go wrong at work because customers will be up in arms….with pitchforks.

But oh well. It’s only one day….right?

Also the semester is drawing to an end and everyone is stressed out over finals. Only one class is giving me a hard time, but then again everyone else in our class is having a hard time as well so I’m not completely alone. All I have to do is do well on the other quizzes and ace the final and the project then I’m home free!!! YAYY!

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